My Life is Terrible

Seriously, it is. I have had chronic and rather severe acne for the past seven plus years. I have struggled with low energy, a low immune system, and various other maladies over the years. I have a difficult personality to deal with.

My parents often make mistakes, misjudge me, set a poor example, and so on.

I have seven younger siblings: I barely ever get a chance to have quiet for longer than… oh, about two minutes. I have to share a room with three sisters. I don’t even have a normal bed– I have to sleep on a bunk bed. And every single night I have to climb all the way up the ladder. And every single morning I have to climb all the way down the ladder. My siblings are constantly annoying me–why on earth do they want me to read books to them?? And can’t someone else help them with their school?? And why must I constantly hear of this book or that book?

I have many more chores than most people my age– I have to clean the WHOLE kitchen (which is a lot harder with 10 people messing it up), do the painting, mop, cook, help with homeschooling, and too many other things to list.

I am not married yet. I have no idea how my future will go; only that it will be hard. Many people that I love are far away.

My life is terrible.

[Okay, I’m running out of “My life is terrible” stuff… :P]

My Life is Wonderful!!

Seriously, it is! I have all of my limbs (and they work, too! [Um, we’re reading a book in which one boy gets his leg amputated, and another is lame. So yes, I have been thinking about the blessing my working limbs are lately.]), my eyes see wonderfully, I am strong, I have long hair and I am getting healthier. My acne has taught me much, and is actually a blessing. Low energy causes me to rely more on my God for strength. I hardly ever get sick any more! My personality is actually an asset, and God has been very gracious in helping me to shape it.

My parents are doing a many, many times better than their backgrounds would predict. They have been married for 22 years! They both love me very much and are doing their best to guide me in this new and strange stage: adulthood. They are both very caring, helpful people… much respected and liked in the community.

I have SEVEN younger siblings!! 😀 I am never lonely, always have someone to talk to or play with. My character is constantly being developed in one way or another: I’m sure I am much more patient than I would otherwise be. I am very good at climbing down ladders now! Who knows– maybe that skill will come in handy someday. 😀 I have plenty of chances to practice being a mother–and a homeschooling mother at that. I have loved having babies in the house so often. 😀 They bless me in many ways, and I’m grateful for each one.

I have many more opportunities than most young people to learn valuable skills and help my family. As a result of things being harder for me now, it will be easier for me later. (Haha, we joke sometimes about how when we get married and only have TWO people to cook and clean for, it will seem like a break. :D) I actually like cleaning the kitchen, painting, mopping, helping with school… and so on.

While I am not yet married, my life is very full and blessed. I have a father (and mother) to help. I have siblings to talk to and be with. I am learning more and more to be content with where I am right now, and not pine away after the mysterious “future”. I am learning to make Jesus my all in all, my rock, my comforter. It’s true: I don’t know what the future holds, and I do know it will be hard one way or another. But! I also know the One who holds the future. And I further know that He is good, and that He uses trials to draw us closer to Him. And yes, many people I love are far away. But guess what?? Regardless of location, I have people to love–and I am loved! And for that I am thankful. And not only that, but there are also people here to love, and be loved by. I am blessed.

I know Jesus Christ: the One who created me, died for me, rose for me, and now lives for me. And not only do I know Him, but I am also known by Him!! I have a relationship with the Creator God! And He loves me. I deserved death; but He has given me life. And such life!!

My life is wonderful!

It’s all a matter of focus, folks.

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